Thoughts on Happiness
It’s more available than I thought.
For most of my life I have related to and conceptualized happiness as a treacherous journey to a secluded destination. Unconsciously looking at it as something to be obtained; and in some ways thinking that I get to this destination, it is something that would be in some way constant.
I began to realize more recently, within the past few years, that it is a state of being and an emotion that has its fluidity, it ebbs and flows, like any other states of being. To me happiness is a state or even a practice of contentment, and coming to the point of accepting that I am able to do my best in each moment and situation (even chaotic ones), then moving to a place of choosing to trust that things will be okay (leave the rest to god). To some degree, it is something that I kind have to keep consciously coming back to throughout the day. It is another perspective or way of being, that is in many ways very comforting. It does not mean I will always feel good to be fully present to whatever is going on in the moment. Often times it does not, but for me there is some relief that comes from acceptance of what is and contentment.
For me right now, happiness is learning to be content and be present despite what life brings (not in a way that is bypassing nor dismissive of what I am experiencing, because that is not helpful).
Now, that I think about it kind of is like going back to how children often see and relate to life, before they realize there is a huge mess that they are witnessing.
Really just connecting to the simplicity of the present, the best I can day to day.